how is being mentally aware/self aware being mentally ill? This is just the brutal reality of being Indian in the west. it was over before it began. If i hadnt been blackpilled, I would kept making a fool out of myself going to the gym with no avail and thinking it would even slightly improve my chances with girls. The only thing that will get me what I truly desire in life is looking less Indian. I think this can be achieved through eye color (stroma) altering surgery to make my dark eyes light brown and making my nose less ethnik.